eh

Feeling lonely and awkward and so so tired. Napped for about an hour, trying not to waste my time waiting, woke up sure that it'd be better, but there's nothing new, no reason to have my eyes open at all. Should be working, but I'm not in the mood to bullshit a deep ~reflection on my work this semester. I barely want to type. I'm just so tired, but I can't move myself to do anything.

Maybe if I could produce anything--fic, my finals stuff, something with meaning, it would be better. But I'm detached and dulled. I think I might just go and knit for a while, make something and let my mind fit into a rhthym...but I need to work on my finals. I'll give myself until 10 to knit, maybe, and then come back and work.

I just feel so useless sometimes.