mwestbelle

Happy Birthday secrethitmen, aileane47, and a BELATED (I suck) birthday to iamsupernova!

Seriously folks, I am in such a crunch. I have my 30 page play (which I'm actually making decent headway on...it's fun to write, which is something I can't say for any of my other assignments), the rewrite on my Pompeii paper, a NEW Pompeii paper, and I am so painfully behind on my Nano, since I've been working on all that shit and watching Manor House and ARGH D:< I just need to find time to get on Write or Die in between all my other writing, because I can probably write 1k in about 20 minutes (thanks Disdainbrook-san!) if I'm on there. Just. Plaaaay. and I actually figured out who the dude in my Pompeii painting IS so I can quote The Iliad and hopefully Professor fucking Douche will give me a grade I fucking deserve (DOUCHE)

On the plus side, finished a scarf, and got told I was "cute. Like, "I can't believe she's interested" cute." :3

You know it's late and you're emo when you cry listening to The 25th Annual Putnam Country Spelling Bee and this song sounds like the height of romance. I will eat you slowly

I wish I was someone's favorite. I thought I was once, but it turned out I was wrong. And sometimes I tell myself that it's good to make friends with people who you know have other favorites, because then you never have to wonder or hope, but knowing you're barely a back-up choice? Not so great. Romance would be good--romance would be fucking excellent--but that's not what it's really about. I just want to be needed, to have someone who loves me best.

I was supposed to go home to have Easter with my grandma and hang out a bit with Dad and Beau. I'm not home. I'm still here, because of the freaking snow. It really really upsets me...I know it's not that big of a deal, and it was only a weekend (Friday evening to Sunday afternoon) but. I don't know, I've been feeling kind of low lately, and on Thursday I had one of those superfun moments of just soul-crushing unhappiness and I was just sitting here feeling awful and couldn't bring myself to do anything and it was bad. I ended up going to curl up with Hil so I could at least be around someone I like and who likes me, but I just told myself that it would all be okay, because I'd be home soon, and then everything would be alright. Or not.

I think I might feel better if I'd had a chance to cry, because crying always makes me feel better, but I had to shove it all down because I was on the phone with the fam and it isn't their fault and I didn't want them to feel bad. (Also, Mum & Juju got their trip to Florida cancelled because of the weather too, and I know that sucks way more.) And now I'm just kind of in that bottled-emotion state...even though I had a really fun night with my friends (we went rollerblading inside the lounge and watched American Psycho) once that was over, I just crashed again.

I'm so so sick of Roomie, she makes me miserable, and I can't wait to never have to see her again. Picking classes for next year, and I can't wait for it to come (well, actually, I can't wait for *summer* to come. Screw next year.)

...sigh.

Sorry for being a downer. Um. Here, have some Geeface:
( Always makes me feel better. )

Currently chewing Altoids gum. Once you get past the first blow-out of mint that kinda makes my eyes water, it's not bad.

Bowling, also, (surprisingly) wasn't bad. Nicky ended being there, so we were bowlin' buddies. I sucked terribly, but that's okay, because now my group social is out of the way and I never have to get anywhere near that crowd in a vaguely social setting Ever Again. Yay.

Sometimes I seriously hate certain friends of mine. Take, for example, KV. She's nice, and I usually get along with her...but I hate her. We're involved in pretty much the same activities, and we have pretty much the same class load......but she's in athletics. Which means we qualify for ALL the same scholarships, and we apply for ALL the same scholarships, the only difference is she GETS all the scholarships. She went to a scholarship interview at her 1st choice school at approximately the same time I went to one at mine. They offered me a decent yearly scholarship...not enough for me to go there, of course. I still need to mess around with other scholarships and loans and all that. KV? Full ride. Full fucking ride. My school wasn't offering that, but STILL. I think one of the things that irks me about this is...I'm smarter than her. Yeah, it's totally snobby and arrogant and bitchy, but I think that I'm smarter than her, and I think I deserve some fucking scholarship money. </bitchtitude>

Moving on. Checked The Black Parade out from the library, and gotta say, I'm digging it. I like the vids too. And the short hair? Much more flattering for Gerard. He has a pretty pudgy face which just looked...wide with the long lank emolocks, and now looks more...cute pudgy. Of course, how can I say bad things about a guy who licks his brother? I ask you. ^_^

Also: Go Fug Yourself is mad love.  I just laugh out loud at pretty much every entry. Love.