mwestbelle

Today is kind of the worst day ever...I'm completely stressed out about my papers for Friday (so, obviously, I am LJ *facepalm*), I don't have time to eat lunch on Tuesdays which combined with the fact that I go to bed hungry means I'm kind of dead by 3 when I do get time to eat, AND my body is like "Hmm, stress and pain...HERE, YOU CAN HAS CRAAMPSROFLLL" I hurt so fucking bad I was pretty much crying when I got home from class...I hurt so bad I couldn't EAT even though I was kind of dying of hunger because OH GOD THE PAIN. I just kind of rolled up in the fetal position and tried to sleep. Kind of worked...I'm feeling a little better and had a couple handfuls of Cheerios--may possibly be going to dinner soon if anyone comes by, otherwise I'll just make ramen. So while I was dying in my bed, I obviously didn't get anything done on Doom Paper II so. Fuck.

But, to cheer myself up, have a love meme!

thelemic gave me the letter R. If you want a letter, just comment!
10 Things I Love that Begin with "R"
1. Rock n' Roll -- Right now I'm pretty much into the popalt stuff, but even when I was little, I was raised on some of the damn finest classic rock (I flipped myself upside down once, I rawked so hard, even as an infant!)
2. RENT -- Even though a large part of me (conservative pig that I am) is going "Get a fucking job!" I really do love this musical and am quite sad I won't be able to see it on Broadway /o\
3. Red -- My favorite color from like, age 4 to age 15. Still a big fan, though most often paired with black (SO GAWTH, FR SRS)
4. Riesens -- Superduper amazing chewy German chocolate candiessss <3
5. Riddles -- Like, brain puzzles and all those things, bring me so much jooooy. I kinda suck at them, but since I have a good memory, I store them all away and whip them out and seem worldly and impressive *nodnod*
6. Ryan Ross -- I am just kind of filled with glee at his little face, I don't know why. I'm pretty sure IRL he would bug the everloving god out of me, but *smush* (Although I really really miss the Gay Circus Hobo phase...the Gay Stoned Cowboy is not my favorite)
7. Ripley, Guy -- Fond as I am of one Ryland, there is a special place in my heart for this dashing Brit.
8. Romance novels -- I love trashy Harlequin romances...I just lolll so hard, especially when friends and I perform dramatic readings.
9. Reading -- I have so little time for books now that I read so much for class, but I fucking love reading. I was always the weird dorky girl who got in trouble for hiding a book under the desk while the teacher was talking <3
10. Roses -- Favorite flower, hands down. Don't care how cliche it is, nothing says romance and beauty to me like good ol' red and white roses.

And on a bandom-related note:
( Poor Ray seems unaware that he is in a band full of SERIAL MURDERERS/CHILD MOLESTERS. )

Have promised two fics for two special ladies...hopefully I'll get at least a good start on those this weekend. I'm trying to think of what to do for my CW short story...I also promised I would write a scary story for a friend, so I'm thinking of just doing one and using it for both \o/ That way I'll have plenty of time to fic, mwahahaha, though I do have two more papers due for Friday; planning to write one this weekend and the other during the week, ugh.

Um. I don't have a lot of important things to say, except everyone is getting My Chem tickets except MEEEEE T_____T My heart *aches* to go, seriously, but I honestly have no way to get there--the bus is ridiculously expensive, and there isn't one going home after the concert, and I'm not spending the night wandering around Chicago. SO MUCH WOE, AGH.

Finally figured out how to take stills with my webcam so \o/ for that. I've been spending a lot of time reading various secret comms and...damn, they make me so sad. Especially the bandom ones--everyone I've met in this fandom has been so sweet, and then I look at the secret posts and they're just filled with venom. Sigh. I guess I don't get it, because I've never been afraid to tell people what I think about something in a fandom...and it's not like I'm going to hate on people who think differently. Sure, I want to flail about everything we like, so why don't we just set aside things we don't agree on? (I mean, unless you're going to troll my journal and, like, assault me with "GERARD IS A FAT FAIL TOAD," I could care less.) So...that's my Deep Thought for bandom. WHY CAN'T WE ALL JUST GET ALONG??? *weeps*

Also, this is how I spend my time in class, if anyone's wondering:

(Bonus hair & roomie's posters!)(And all that shading was a bitch)

My creative nonfiction piece is just NOT COMING, which really sucks because it's DUE TUESDAY and I'm not going to have any time to work on it over the weekend because I'm going home to see Juju in the school musical (Anything Goes, I'm v.v. excited) But, ARGH. I leave tomorrow, and I just CAN'T WRITE IT, and everything is coming up due--I've got a prospectus for Script Analysis due Wednesday (and I'm still not sure I have a proper handle on the whole segment thing) and the major paper for Shakespeare on the 18th (it's an INTENSE paper, and I'm in a class filled with upperclassmen so it really has to kick ass) and just FNNNRGH.

In other news, I'm considering expanding the Brendonbot ficlet I wrote...I like tech-y universes (and sexbots, but who DOESN'T like sexbots? I ask you.) and...yeah. But I'm still hoping to get some work done on my other project, and I just want to write my fan stuff SOBADLY but I have all this homework and DDDD: Not cool. Boogers.

Well, so this isn't an entirely pointless whiney post, here's the beginning of an AU I was considering a month or so ago in which Gerard's family is obscenely rich, and Frank is a sex slave that Gerard's parents buy for him cuz that's a thing you do in this universe (why am I so fixated on sex slaves/sexbots/etc?? CUZ THEY'RE AWESOME, OBVSLY), but Gerard is MORALLY OPPOSED and HIJINKS ENSUE.

( Lolrandom!AU bits! )

So I woke up "early" (nine-ish) even though it's a Saturday because Hil left a note on my door...and then once I'm dressed, I go down to her room and she doesn't answer >.< I feel guilty about going back to sleep, even though I'm still kinda tired, and I really really should be writing. I think I will, as soon as I'm done with this.

Doctor Who is pretty much invading my mind...I'm already quite fond of Ten even though I haven't really adapted to him yet--Nine will always be my Doctor, but David Tennant's rampant oral fixation slashability charm certainly helps smooth the way. The idea that Barty Jr. (or "That Tongue Guy" as he was often thought of by friends of mine what did I say? ORAL FIXATION) was the goofy Doctor is nifty--I also put a hold on his miniseries version of Casanova, and yes, it's mainly because of smex. Although the costumes look pretty cracktastic from what I've seen.

I also auditioned for Rocky Horror, and was shocked and thrilled to win the role of Riff Raff. Sweetness! Hunchback!Crazy ahoy! And I'm planning to participate in a pick-up World of Darkness LARP, because I am just. that. nerdy.

Still haven't done any laundry, will hopefully be able to get into the washers today (or I really will have to employ the dreaded "Smell Test")

Maybe I'll watch a movie--it's tough, because my body is a bit dead, but my brain is jumping all over the place.

Went college shopping yesterday...I now have an alarm clock (with radio, CD and a line in for my iPod), a fan, a phone/answering machine, plus a boatload of other crap (detergent, shampoo, mascara, etc.) But that's mostly done...all I have to do now is buy some snacks, figure out how big my storage crates should be, and buy a new bra (TMI?)

However, my mum bought me Hot Fuzz (YES!) and I picked up 300 (w00t!). Last night, I watched Much Ado About Nothing (the Branagh version) and love. I really adore Shakespeare, and I really really adore Branagh!Shakespeare. Plus the joy that came from Robert Sean Leonard showing up ("EEEK! It's WILSON!!!") even though he over-acted a bit at times...Keanu Reeves was, well, Keanu Reeves (surly), and I don't know what the hell was up with Michael Keaton and I don't think I want to (he was funny most of the time, though, when I wasn't going "WTF?!"). But Kenneth was love, as always. I really want to watch his Hamlet before I go to school, but it's checked out of the library T.T Maybe I'll pick up Othello again.

And now, I'm going to go watch What Not to Wear.

So I have a bunch of thoughts.

Saw OotP. It was good. It was really good, but for some reason, I don't feel like writing about it. It's the same about the book...I kind of feel like, I don't know, I've lost a bit of the HP spark. It's become almost routine for me: I see the movies, I wait for the books, I read the books, I talk about the books--there isn't the same thrill as there used to be. I don't know if it's because it's happened so many times that the high is wearing off, or if it's because I'm older, or if it's just because my mind is on other things and I'm moody as all hell lately. Shrugs all around.

I was chatting with my best friend over messenger the other day, and we were having this conversation, about an alternate universe where I was a gay man named JJ (my parents would have named me John if I was a boy) and she was a super-girly girl (in this universe, she's a mostly angry commie who, if not masculine, is pretty darn tough) and we would still, of course, be BFF, except we would bitch about people's clothes together...and I just thought "this is it." When they talk about going away to college, everyone always says how much they'll miss everyone, but I've been realizing I really won't. I'm not antisocial, I just don't form really strong connections with many people. There are a few close friends I'll miss, but more people are "meh, too bad" and a goodly number are "oh thank god I don't ever have to look at your annoying face ever again." But that's what I'll miss. Just talking about the weirdest thing, planning when we want to hook up (Hairspray on Friday, tentatively)...I'll miss that. A lot. And the funny thing? As an online convo, it probably means I won't have to miss it. I'll have convos with her over the course of the year. But it just felt very lonely.

Something I am excited about: Rent. Or, more specifically, Mark/Roger fic. I really was hankering for a new slash pairing (I'd gotten bored with both Harry/Draco and Wincest), and that just fit my needs perfectly. Anyone interested *must* check out gildedmuse because she is absolutely amazing. I've read pretty much ever M/R story she has in the last few days, and I adore them all. For the pr0n-minded (feel no shame, I am part of your ranks), I very highly recommend the Mucho Masturbation series, as well as her holiday series (Santa Blows and Fuck Like (Easter) Bunnies), and damn, pretty much anything she wrote. Love.