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[mwestbelle]

I've been in...I don't know what I'd call it. It's not precisely a bad mood but...a Not Good mood for a while and I don't know what to do with it :\ My mcr4u is...outlined, I guess you'd say? I have each of the major scenes started/50% done, and now I just have to go and fill in some. Maybe moving onto a different writing project will help invigorate me, I just feel so slumpy. Part of it is my work schedule, definitely...it's just so hard to really *do* anything, because my jobs aren't close enough together in time that I can stay in the same "Work Work Work" mood the whole time but they aren't separated from each other enough that I can actually accomplish something between them. Plus, they're so so different, it's just a whole different feel. I actually really like TAing, but ACS drains me so bad. I know I'm no fun to be with afterwards--I'm either completely fried and spazzed out or in a foul mood. At least, I'm hoping that that's my issue, and that the lyrics are wrong.

A friend just posted pics from the year on Facebook and it's neat to look back and go "Oh, ballroom dancing! Oh, Roman Day! Oh, wandering around with people!" ...I miss school. I love being at home, and I of course love not having class, but I really miss having people just, always around. I get so lonely sometimes.

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[conquer-minds.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

I'm so sorry. I hope you're feeling less down soon, bb. ♥

May I suggest powernaps? I'm not a napping person, but perhaps they'll work for you? *small smile*

P.S. I know how you feel re: summertime. There are a lot of people around me, but I still feel really lonely. =/ <-- lol that turned out more emo than it was supposed to turn out, oh well, I hope you get my drift. >____>

[mwestbelle.livejournal.com]

Thanks.

I'm not good with naps...having to get up makes me even more tired /o\

PS: Surrounded by people yet still so aloooooooone ;_____; :P But yeah, I definitely know what you mean.