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mwestbelleI've been in...I don't know what I'd call it. It's not precisely a bad mood but...a Not Good mood for a while and I don't know what to do with it :\ My mcr4u is...outlined, I guess you'd say? I have each of the major scenes started/50% done, and now I just have to go and fill in some. Maybe moving onto a different writing project will help invigorate me, I just feel so slumpy. Part of it is my work schedule, definitely...it's just so hard to really *do* anything, because my jobs aren't close enough together in time that I can stay in the same "Work Work Work" mood the whole time but they aren't separated from each other enough that I can actually accomplish something between them. Plus, they're so so different, it's just a whole different feel. I actually really like TAing, but ACS drains me so bad. I know I'm no fun to be with afterwards--I'm either completely fried and spazzed out or in a foul mood. At least, I'm hoping that that's my issue, and that the lyrics are wrong.
A friend just posted pics from the year on Facebook and it's neat to look back and go "Oh, ballroom dancing! Oh, Roman Day! Oh, wandering around with people!" ...I miss school. I love being at home, and I of course love not having class, but I really miss having people just, always around. I get so lonely sometimes.
A friend just posted pics from the year on Facebook and it's neat to look back and go "Oh, ballroom dancing! Oh, Roman Day! Oh, wandering around with people!" ...I miss school. I love being at home, and I of course love not having class, but I really miss having people just, always around. I get so lonely sometimes.
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Date: 2008-07-02 08:18 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2008-07-02 08:31 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2008-07-02 08:31 pm (UTC)I understand what you mean about home/school. Like, it's nice to be around your family, but it's better to be with your peers and on your own. It's like straddling a line the first couple years in college, but then gradually 'out on your own' seems like the only way to be. *hugs*
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Date: 2008-07-03 02:12 am (UTC)Yeah. :\
ALSO: WHAT DO YOU WANT ME TO WRITE FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
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Date: 2008-07-03 02:24 am (UTC)Birthday fic?! For serious?! ...uh, idk? I'm not good with this stuff...
Edited cuz what I wrote made NO sense.
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Date: 2008-07-03 02:28 am (UTC)Well yeaaaah, not anything that...long or impressive. You can be specific with stuff, or just give me like, a prompt and a pairing and I'll go with it.
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Date: 2008-07-03 02:57 am (UTC)Heh. Short can still be impressive, you know. I'm utterly at a loss though as to what to ask for. All of my pairing preferences are kind of out there. And there really isn't much in the way of "omg, I wish someone would just write X" as far as plots go. If I have ideas (not often), I guess I write them. Basically, I suck at this...
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Date: 2008-07-03 03:00 am (UTC)Any pairing, idc. Well, preferably not with Ray or Bob since I don't think I write them very well. But seriously, pick two names out of a hat, doesn't matter to me. And you can just pick like, a kink? Or a theme? It doesn't have to be a detailed request.
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Date: 2008-07-03 03:44 am (UTC)Okay. This is kind of odd, but I've been trying to get it forever. Pete/Brandon Flowers. Mean!sex. They don't like each other, but the attraction is mutual. Nothing too extreme, but I wouldn't mind it being vaguely humiliating. Does that make sense? It doesn't matter if you don't know Brandon too well, cuz you can just make him a generic asshole. I don't care who has the upper hand, if either of them do. I don't care what sex act is involved (although wank worked in any which way is always appreciated). I don't care how graphic it is. I probably sound insane. Heh. I can give you background on their 'feud' if need be.
So I was more specific than I expected....
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Date: 2008-07-03 03:55 am (UTC)Ooh, this sounds fun. Plz tell me about this ~feud, I know that Brandon Flowers is kind of persona non grata around bandom but have never been quite sure whyy.
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Date: 2008-07-03 04:48 am (UTC)In September of 2005, Brandon allegedly made a comment about the A&R executive they share, insinuating that he spent more time on FOB, or that the label backed FOB more. The next week, Pete posted in the FOB journal "It's funny the way you talk about sharing an A&R guy like it matters,"and "It's too bad you wrote a couple of good songs, otherwise it'd be that much easier to write you off." Pete signs the post: "Mr. Brightsides."
A few days later, Pete posts on fbr.com about patd: "I hope none of THE OTHER Las Vegas BANDs get jealous that there is another gem out in the middle of the desert. F---ing wasting my time on FLOWERS."
In April 2006, Pete offers to take Brandon out on a date to make amends:
"The whole thing has never been like, 'Meet me at the bike racks after school!' And since the whole [feud] started, we've had a whole bunch of near-misses, where we'll show up at a party after he left or something like that," Wentz laughed. "So now I'd just like to make peace. I'd like to go out to dinner with Brandon, because I think he'd be an interesting dude to eat with. But I don't think he would go out to dinner with me. We'll go to Nobu or something like that. I'll get the rock shrimp, some California rolls, perhaps a little spicy tuna."
In June, Brandon gives this interview with NME: "You don't realize what you could be getting yourselves into, with Fall Out Boy, and what kind of impact it could have in a way that you don't really want. ... Culturally, if it gets as big as it is in America, it could change an entire generation of people growing up here. Emo, pop-punk, whatever you want to call it, is dangerous. We don't wanna dislike anyone, and we've still never met Fall Out Boy, but there's a creature inside me that wants to beat all those bands to death. They just all go into the happy emo funnel and everyone loves 'em without thinking. 'Oh, Fall Out Boy likes you? Fuck! I'm gonna go buy your CD!'"
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Date: 2008-07-03 04:49 am (UTC)One month later, Brandon apologizes, saying he'd "like to take it all back." "These people are just doing what they want to do, just like I am. I'm actually a nice person and I love people. I just am opinionated, and sometimes jealous. It's not something I'm proud of." Flowers seemed most anxious to take back what he said about fellow Las Vegans Panic! at the Disco, that they were just piggy-backing off Fall Out Boy's success. "I don't even know what their music's like, or if I would even like it," he said of Panic. "That made me feel even worse, to think they could have been fans of ours and I hurt their feelings. That's just stupid."
In September, Pete revealed that Brandon personally called him to apologize before he issued his public apology. "He did it before the article came out, which I think is cool, 'cause it's not just a showing for the press," Wentz recounted. "Everyone wants to write the story that's controversial, that's like, 'Oh, that guy's standing next to that girl, he must be f*cking her.' 'These bands must f*cking hate each other' -- that gets the most hits.” "I guess I would like to apologize for ever letting it escalate anywhere," he added. "I've always liked the Killers, and still do. I think Brandon's a fast guy, and I like that."
As an aside, “This Ain’t A Scene, It’s an Arms Race” was originally called “You Can’t Spell Star without A&R.”
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Date: 2008-07-02 09:21 pm (UTC)I am using this icon as a signal to myself to GET OFF THE DAMN COMPUTER AND PRACTICE ALREADY OMG.
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Date: 2008-07-03 02:14 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2008-07-03 02:20 am (UTC)spewingexplaining that all over your journal, ahaha.IT DID. I HAVE TO TYPE WITH THE PADS OF MY FINGERS. I haven't even put my guitar away yet--it's like it's staring at me, saying "plaaay meee. you need to practice chords MOAR. stop looking for tabs and chords of songs you can play and praaaaaactiiiiiiice." It's all spooky. (And green! :D I am in pain and frustrated and annoyed and giddy. NEW THINGS YAY.)
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Date: 2008-07-03 03:06 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2008-07-02 10:54 pm (UTC)what do you mean by the lyrics are wrong, out of curiosity? :/
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Date: 2008-07-03 02:15 am (UTC)Nothing bb
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Date: 2008-07-02 11:06 pm (UTC)I'm so sorry. I hope you're feeling less down soon, bb. ♥
May I suggest powernaps? I'm not a napping person, but perhaps they'll work for you? *small smile*
P.S. I know how you feel re: summertime. There are a lot of people around me, but I still feel really lonely. =/ <-- lol that turned out more emo than it was supposed to turn out, oh well, I hope you get my drift. >____>
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Date: 2008-07-03 02:32 am (UTC)I'm not good with naps...having to get up makes me even more tired /o\
PS: Surrounded by people yet still so aloooooooone ;_____; :P But yeah, I definitely know what you mean.
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Date: 2008-07-03 04:27 am (UTC)I know exactly what you mean. I've been pretty lonely this past year that I took off college.
But I found LJ, and you guys made it better.
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Date: 2008-07-03 05:29 am (UTC)It's really nice to have people around even if they're not physically there :)
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Date: 2008-07-03 08:33 am (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2008-07-03 07:27 pm (UTC)